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BiPolar is a sight unseen handicap! A condition misunderstood & often left untreated. The public points fingers as if the individual is crazy, when infact the individual plagued is intelligent, creative, & hopelessly miserable.
I have suffered my 55 years with this condition with most of the years undiagnosised. A state of constant sadness, highs that created havoic in my life, uncontrollable urgess to spend money, have sex, bad choices. Today, I check in with my phychiatrist regularly. Sometimes tweeking the meds to adjust the sadness. The highs rarely come, but when they do, very mild. I push myself to do necessary tasks, something in my head talks to me constantly, telling me move on. I cope with the difficulity of living in the day I am grateful for. My husband doesn't fully understand. I lock away feels that need to be let go. Afraid to speak, for fear of judgement. It is a hell within a body that needs to be set free. Thoughts of suicide have mostly disappeared replaced with the need to sleep.
Gray days play havoic on my mind, sunny is my savior! Today is gray.....I must push to move and fight the urge to sleep. I hate this battle, but I am so thankful to have a good doctor, my life, and my loved ones.
